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dear blog

2010-01-05T12:49:00.005+08:00

hello blog,

I ought to close you down. its been ages since we have last had contact.

You have become useless to me.

I no longer want to write about what happen from day to day on you anymore.

In the beginning, you were just a mere tool for me to better my English.
Its not really working too well although I would say I should have put in more effort.

Occasionally, I used you update myself to the small pool of readers about my life.
An occasional opportunity to seek attention to oneself.
I admit that it pleases me to have people commenting on my entries. It feels good to draw in attention.

But dear blog, where have all of them gone to?

I understand that this is not your fault at all. I have neglected you after having found better and more important things to do.

You see, I realize that sitting in front the computer all day is a poison.

Draining you of the opportunity to socialize out there, instead here I am sitting in here with you. Talking to a virtual machine.

It deems me obsolete when the opportunity arises for conversation, making me handicap in such events.

Oh I hate all this. I hate reporting to you about whatever I am doing and whatever I thought of.

I am sorry my dear blog. I am going to close you down for a while now. Officiating what should have been done months ago.

Thank you for keeping everything a memory.

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010.

Goodbye blog. For now.

Zhi Yao

The climb. abeit an ardous one.

2009-11-10T10:40:00.003+08:00

That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

ilu.

2009-09-28T01:26:00.002+08:00

recess week.

:)

exam stress.

:(

life goes on.

:)

gonna ~~try~~ do my best.

:)

alr 9 months :)
ilu.

:)

girlfriend.

2009-08-09T11:49:00.003+08:00

My girlfriend. now you see who wears the pants.

at the coffee club...

at swensons...

at TCC...

at Cafe Cartel...

its good when your gf helps you wipe your mouth after satisfying meals, writes your planner for you, helps you do up your timetable, tugs you tightly watching movies and always think for you.

i love my gf.

zhiyao-

2009-07-24T17:38:00.001+08:00

hi.
favourite picture of the day:

entry

2009-07-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

Its been quite a while since i have been in touch with blogging.
I don't really think people come here to see whats here anymore. whats interesting and such.

i am leading quite a happy life :D
with gf and friends and uni is starting.

without work is making me abit restless. i cant say i dont welcome the break. but i think its better to work abit more to earn more money before uni starts.
DRAINING my savings now :(

thinking of going back to studying frightens me a little.
suddenly memorising and understanding became a very unfamiliar thing to do anymore.
the past 2 years made me very comfortable with doing things outside of studying.
I realise that actually studying is quite difficult if u compare it with working or army.

Memorising notes and all that can be abit scary with exams determining your future.
i think these 2 years of living without all these stress is making me fearful of what lies ahead.

sigh. oh well.

i think nothing much gonna change cept that my life will have an additional priority :/
lets see how i can juggle them out :)

-zhiyao

2009-07-08T11:52:00.002+08:00

dear diary,

recently 1000+ people got infected with the h1n1 virus in singapore,
michael jackson died,
north korea have been firing missiles,
and I got sick.

I am finally jobless.
Still a bit itchy for work but welcomed the break.
Stopped the MOE stint on 26 Jun, went to FOC ScBE camp NUEVE on 29 Jun till 3 July.
Got sick. Flu, Phlegm, Cough, Throat infection.

Staying at home now :)

-zhiyao

new wallet

2009-06-07T23:44:00.007+08:00

its the perfect reason to blog.

gf got me a new wallet. Guy Laroche.
my old one was already totally chui. she cant stand seeing me carry it anymore.
the wallet is something that may pinch if i were to buy it myself but she bought it without any regards even though shes not working much.

what makes it more special is the thought. :)
i really really appreciate it. the moment i saw the wallet, i just couldnt hide the smile and shock.
its the most pleasant surprise.

theres no need for special occasion sometimes.
i know that she always care for me like how i do for her.

i'll always keep the wallet close to my heart where she belongs.

-zhiyao

on to finer things...

2009-04-27T22:09:00.002+08:00

i am pretty sick of working...

the mundane routine.

although the paycheck is enticing but i am thinking of exploring other stuff...

but what..

-zhiyao

prawning and misc.

2009-04-27T00:51:00.003+08:00

bishan prawning is a good experience although i had a bad number of catch.
Like 7 prawns for 3 hours sharing with mx.
but still it was a great get together.
Its been quite a while.
Talk cock with the army guys is always great although I spend most of the time figuring out why the prawn just can't get baited.
Eating the prawn is the shitty part. I think most of it is uncooked and tasted real raw.
Really looking forward to a shitty experience tomorrow.

yesterday night was spend with the loner gang at mr teh tarik. nothing extra said which cannot be talked about online.

My girl is still having her exams. for 3 weeks straight. takes up a load of endurance and concentration. gave me a very gloomy outlook of how my uni life is gonna become.
her 2nd last paper tomorrow. she's sleeping now.
Probably dreaming about the molecular formulas and mechanism.
Cross fingers and hope she do well tomorrow =)

Looking forward to all the things that we are gonna do when aft her exams. =)

-zhiyao

books.

2009-04-25T14:00:00.003+08:00

After close to 2 months of reading, non diligently though, I have finally finished it.
Its a very good read and I recommend it to anyone who wants a good book.
A friend recommended it to me and my girl bought it for me.
The starting didnt really interest me that much but as you go on, it becomes very intriguing. Its a page flipper and you definitely won't regret it =)

On to Marley and Me now :)

-zhiyao

5 languages of love

2009-04-04T10:18:00.001+08:00

Words of Affirmation, Quality Time, Receiving Gifts, Acts of Service and Physical Touch.

grateful.

2009-04-04T09:35:00.001+08:00

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

love truly

laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should smile and be

grateful.

the school.

2009-03-19T13:40:00.003+08:00

The School.

What creates the enthusiasm of learning ultimately lies with the teacher.
As the role model of the students, he/she creates the motivation for the students to learn.

Without the passion to do so for the batches and batches of students coming in, he/she will not be able to sit through the torturious regime of facing the same workload each and everyday.

My own experience as a relief teacher have been pretty tormenting.

The past 3 months of teaching absolutely leeched out the possibility of me going into a teaching career. I would say being a teacher is not at all a difficult task. However, to be able to instill a certain thirst for knowledge in students would be one of the hardest to achieve. That is to say being a teacher is easy, but being a good one is going to take a lot of passion.

For me, I have been given a task of teaching few classes with entirely zero preparation. Even to the extent that the HOD was at a loss and what I was supposed to do. Teachers within the school were nonchalent about the curriculum that has to be continued even when they apply for a long term leave.
I believe teachers should have a certain responsibility to the students of the class he/she teaches. Even though I understand that its not easy for 1 person to undertake such a task towards the future of 40 or so students.
Being pushed into a class with just a textbook to teach is not as simple as it seems. It takes great effort to present yourself without any prior preparation of the subject. You have to hide the fear of not being able to produce any results at the end of the lesson and that burns part of your character and adds on to the guilt.
Its not easy to have to go through such a process daily and it creates a toil mentally to such an extent you totally give up on your passion to teach and just survives daily running through materials.
Students starts to give up themselves and you start dropping all hopes on your teaching.

It would be very wrong to put the entire blame upon teachers as it also ultimately brings about the question of who to ensure the fire of passion within teachers continue to burn. Passionate teachers with the enthusiasm to inspire may also burn out after much and much erosion after many years.

The school system itself with the principal as the leader should be responsible for the continuility of this passion. Singapore placed high emphasis on the education but i believe that not all schools are given the same footing to begin with. Neighbourhood schools should be given the extra hand in progressing with the other SAP schools. As they say, we are only as strong as our weakest. The education system in Singapore will never surpass if neighbourhood school's are still lagging behind.

Cant continue now... Gonna start work now =)

Zhiyao

Plans

2009-02-27T18:26:00.003+08:00

Outline.

My Plan.
Quitting MOE work soon. Tentatively 23March.
Getting more tutees to get the income.
Continuing with relief teaching.

March => Working
March holidays 14~22. => Read up on school work.

April=> her incubation period. Exam Period.

May=> Work

June=> Holiday

July=> FOC

Aug=> Uni Starts

I didnt notice that my life is pretty much just work home and girlfriend. But i don't mind at all. :)

March => Friends
April => Friends
May => Friends
June => Friends
July => Friends
Aug => Friends

Maybe they wont call me pantu anymore now. =)

content.

2009-02-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

=)

Indeed. I am a pretty lucky guy.
But I think I did put in effort to get what I have what =/
I am contented just to have things like this.
I am contented just to be with you =)

Snippets.

2009-02-05T22:03:00.002+08:00

Decided the blog needs a revamp.
Needs to be woken or something.
Thought I'd write something I can think of now.
Its been quite an eventful month =)

I suppose people do things without reasons sometimes. Maybe thats why love can always make people do silly things.

Anyway, that's not the topic for today.
Probably updates should be more ideal for this entry.
I am still ongoing my current Relief Teacher by day and Temp Clerk by afternoon job.
Garners about 80~90 a day if I do get the slots.
Not sure about how long this lasts but I want to hold on to it for as long as I can.

I believe I am lucky, not that I am not tired at the end of the day but at least I have the opportunity to have such a chance to earn more pocket money before my uni term starts. So I am not complaining.

But I kinda lack the time for some personal upgrading. Girlfriend is scaring me with the amount of things that I have forgotten. Kept telling myself that I need to do some revision but I never seem to find the time to do so.

I like to utilize my time as much as possible. To do as many things as I can and leave out any time wasted. Probably should get myself a planner to plan what I need to do. If not I am losing track of what needs to be done and when it need to be done. Sometimes I think thats pointless cause I don't have the habit of writing down too :/

I'd like to spend more time with her too. Its never enough when shes around.
I know I am lazy, but she never fails to make me compete every time over whether to see her at the end of the day or go home to get more rest even with so much fatigue.
At the end of the day, sometimes you just feel scared that you might not treat her as well in the future and it haunts sometimes. :/

I don't know why sometimes it seems that the girl's always get hurt from the guy. Marcus says that Loner Gang guys always have it the other way round. Not that I am hurt. It meant that we will never hurt them intentionally.

Shes different. Shes the reason for all my happiness =) Everyday becomes a joy having her in my life. I love how she comes in, decides to stay and make it her home.

Oh well, I'm tired. She cant cure that. Only sleep can. hahaha.

Good nite.

21.

2009-01-23T17:55:00.003+08:00

21

The arrival of the big 21 brings greater responsibility, more maturity and higher expectations.
Sheltered I am from the impending challenges of the adult society and the obstacles that seems to lay down in front of me as I move onwards in life. Sheltered but not unexposed.

Reaching a ripe age of 21 sees a new change in my life, having a girlfriend now, I am still learning and picking up pieces as everyday brings in exciting surprises.

I am well aware of the hole that I am tunneled in now, so desperately trying to climb out to learn the so many things that I do not know. The world can be so big, there can be so many things to grasp hold of, there can be so many things to do, but there can only be 1 u.

Humans have an interesting way of connecting one another and they are build so intellectually in ways that you can never fully understands what the other party may be thinking.
How 2 hearts are roped together to become 1 is always how fate manages to let these 2 hearts meet at that certain time to melt and form one. How many people truly believes that it is that easy for that to happen.

Mistakes made as we walk down the winding road never seem to stop coming but trip and fall we may make, the ultimate journey lies in whether we are strong enough to continue on towards the final goal.

Bustle and hustle of the society, world revolves around and around, the day changes to night and back to day, many things are happening as we so speak, to hold hand in hand as 2 joint individual is the strongest bond in midst everything that changes in the world.

I believe I am holding yours now. :)

-zhiyao

life overloaded.

2009-01-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

seriously overloaded sometimes..
a simple dinner is often the best escape =)

i am wondering why i am starting to lose grasp of life's simple pleasures...
why i am starting to lose touch with friends...
are they being difficult or is it me..

-zhiyao

random thoughts.

2009-01-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

I thought. sometimes pretty silly but I thought about this..

Love is like a tap, it flows and flows...
until one day it just decided to stop.
and you don't get loved anymore.

I wonder does this happen to relationships :/
Maybe u just have to continue to pay the utility bills.
Then it will just flow on..

:)

2009-01-06T09:52:00.000+08:00

so this is what loving feels like :)

picturesque

2008-12-30T17:13:00.003+08:00

The first thing I thought is not "awwwww" so sweet..

The first thing i thought was , "eh u sibeh bo liao izzit"

-zhiyao

christmas.

2008-12-29T17:11:00.002+08:00

I've got a strong impulse to blog suddenly regarding this strange air of "love" feeling this christmas season.

Actually I observed that for many christmases this has already been quite relevant. During this season, there is this strange need to have someone to hold or have someone to love. To feel the strange magic of companionship or togetherness is so much stronger when it comes down to this December. Aside from valentines day, I wonder why other days doesnt bring the same feel.

Couples who broke up recently tend to feel exceptionally strong feeling of lost and sadness this christmas. "Emo" is the word to describe the feeling of the emptiness during this period of time.
In this case spending alone would naturally evoke more loneliness whereas spending with more friends results in more hookups and would sooth the feeling of pain.

I for one had this overwhelming sense of loneliness this season due to "losing" friends exceptionally so this december. With more friends being attached and more friends joining other social circles, this tend to make you lose direction and feel lost.

Furthermore, I have made a couple of hard decisions which turned on me. With the additional christmas "love" air around, its making me question whether I am in fact doing the right thing.
I am one who is easily indecisive and very easily suaded into doing things. This happens to be my strength as well as weakness. People like me because its easy to do things together but when it comes down to hard questions, I can never seem to find the right answer.

I guess christmas, this particular christmas, I see the trend of people getting into relationship and enjoying each others company. For a long time now, I think christmas should always be spent with the one you treasure. To do just anything with the person you want to hold so close to you. For many years now, I just can't seem to be able to have that.

Everyone should have gotten their gifts by now ...
Alas, my present is still lost on santa's journey.

To a more hopeful christmas next year. cheers.

zhiyao-

Love remains the same.

2008-12-28T11:25:00.001+08:00

=)
terrific song for the mood.

爱

2008-12-23T14:57:00.001+08:00

my friend wrote this.

如果你不爱一个人,请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己让成为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,我选择沉默 ;
如果沉默是一种伤害,我选择离开 .

如果失去是苦你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是我你会不会拒绝我

he told me he experienced each sentence before.
i believe him.
cause i see myself in it too :)

Me.

2008-12-22T11:00:00.004+08:00

=)

Beginning to slowly settle down and breath.
Life will get better and must be better.
I will strive for better accomplishments =)
I will strive to be better.
I will be happier.
Get up and go.

A little story

2008-12-03T09:18:00.002+08:00

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,
'Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river.'
The little girl said, 'No, Dad. You hold my hand.'
'What's the difference?' Asked the puzzled father.
'There's a big difference,' replied the little girl.

'If I hold your hand and something happens to me,
chances are that I may let your hand go.
But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens,
you will never let my hand go.'

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person who loves you rather than expecting
them to hold yours...
This message is too short......but carries a lot of Feelings.

when you are bored.

2008-12-02T15:34:00.002+08:00

They say this is a real neurological test. But I say this is a real boredom test. To test how bored you are right now. If you are able to do what they ask you to, you are seriously too bored.

Get out there and do something constructive.

Email start ->

This is a REAL Neurological Test. ( 神經學測試)
>
> Seat comfortably and feel calm. ( 讓自己坐舒服及安靜 )
>
> 1- Find the C below. Do not use any cursor help. 從下方找出 C來 .不要用螢幕的游標幫助 .
>
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
> OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
>
>
> 2- If y ou already found the C, now find the 6 below.如果以經找到C了,現在就開始找6.
>
> 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
> 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
> 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
> 9999699999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
> 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
> 9999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999999
>
>
> 3- Now find the N below. It's a little more difficult..現在開始找N. 會有一點點難 ....
>
> MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMNMMMM
> MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
> MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
>
> MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
> MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
>
>
> This is NOT a joke. 這不是一個玩笑.
>
> If you were able to pass this 3 tests, you can cancel your annual
> visit to your neurologist.
>
> Your brain is great and you're far from having Alzheimer Disease (阿茲海默症).

Email end <--

CONGRATS ON BEING SUPERBLY BORED. WOOOOOHOOOOO =)

our dialect

2008-11-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

I dont seem to understand why train rides give me so much inspiration to blog.
It had been quite some time.

Todays train ride to jurong east mrt was an interesting one. Theres 3 young girls, definitely younger than I am, who uses purely dialect to communicate. Purely dialect. When i first boarded the train, I first thought they were talking in Thai language.
Slowly i realised that they are speaking in dialect, I dont know which one. Sounds pretty much like a hokkien or teochew.
I was astonished that theres no chinese or english involved. Purely dialect. This is definitely one of the rarest thing i see from a youth nowadays. The dialect used was not vulgar in anyway and used just to chat between them.

This brings to the point that our dialect nowadays have eroded to become mostly crude vulgarities. Youths nowadays do not even know what dialect they belong to let alone know how to speak their dialect. I for one feel that this is a great loss.
I have always wanted to know how to speak more languages even though dialect is not really one language. To be able to learn my own dialect hakka have been one of my wish. But it seems too difficult now not to cultivate the habit since young.

The younger generation nowadays are lacking the roots that they grew from. They are no longer yearning to learn about themselves and are just blindly following the westernised cultures that are sweeping us off.

I applaud the 3 teen girls who are able to speak so well in their own dialect because its a shame not to be able to know how our parents or grandparents speak in the past. Its a shame that this will be a gap that will continue on throughout generations.

The slow erosion of our dialect will bring the inevitable uplifting of our chinese roots. I am chinese... or am I?

-zhiyao

ORD post

2008-11-09T23:28:00.004+08:00

finally, the day that marks the end of my 1 year and 10 months journey.
I don't feel much. seriously.
theres no jubilation, no sadness or any mixed emotions.
but that doesnt mean my journey is any less than my fellow army brothers.

this journey, may seem short, in a flash of eyes ...
and countless of starry night outfields i have imagined this day,
i still cannot believe that yes, that day is today.

no, its not short. 1 year and 10 months of my life is spent on doing the nation a service.
the intense training i had during my sispec course and armour course i have endured counting down to this final day.
the early mornings i have to wake up and the nights i have to stay up.
the bunk, bed, cupboard.
washing my m113, the toilet.
the scanning of 11bs for breakfast lunch and dinner.
basketball games, late night guitar session, mahjong sessions in the bunk.

i guess what i missed most would be my company of brother forged throughout this 1 year and 10 months.
people from different walks of life that showed me that we can all work together and have lot of fun together.
people who walk the same route as me together and will continue to further walk with me till my last breath.

today my army life ended with no fireworks, no celebration.
just a simple post to mark the end of an awesome journey.

today I orded.
=))
Mr Chong Zhi Yao

Food For Laughs.

2008-10-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

一户潘姓人家，长辈过世。
家祭时，请来了一位乡音很重的老先生来当司仪。
讣闻是这么写的：
　　　孝　男：潘根科
　　　孝　媳：池氏
　　　孝孙女：潘良慈
　　　孝　孙：潘道时
但这位老先生老眼昏花又发音不标准。
当他照著讣闻唱名时，凡是字面上有三点水的或左边部首都漏掉没看到。
于是就给他念成这样子：「孝男，翻……跟……斗……」
孝男一听，直觉得很奇怪，但又不敢问，于是就翻了一个跟斗。
接著又说：「孝媳，也……是……」
孝媳一听：「我也要翻啊？」于是孝媳也翻了一个跟斗。
再来：「孝孙女，翻两次。」
孝孙女一听，想想爸妈都翻了，我也翻吧！于是就翻了两个跟斗。
此时孝孙心想：「老爸、老妈都各翻一次，姐姐也翻两次，那么我要翻几次？」心里想著想著就开始紧张了：「怎么办？」
只见老先生扯开喉咙，大声念出：
「孝孙……翻……到……死」

陳小春 - 獨家記憶

2008-09-20T09:59:00.000+08:00

忘記分開后的第幾天起
喜歡一個人看下大雨
沒聯絡孤單就象連鎖反映
想要快樂都沒力氣

淚雨世界象場災難電影
讓現在的我可憐到底
對不起誰也沒有時光機器
已經結束的沒有商量的余地

我希望你是我獨家的記憶
擺在心底不管別人說得多么難聽
現在我擁有的事情
是你是給我一半的愛情

我喜歡你是我獨家的記憶
誰也不行從我這個身體中拉走你
在我感情的封鎖區
有關于你絕口不提沒問題

淚雨世界象場災難電影
讓現在的我可憐到底
對不起誰也沒有時光機器
已經結束的沒有商量的余地

我希望你是我獨家的記憶
擺在心底不管別人說得多么難聽
現在我擁有的事情
是你是給我一半的愛情

我喜歡你是我獨家的記憶
誰也不行從我這個身體中拉走你
在我感情的封鎖區
有關于你絕口不提沒關系

我希望你是我獨家的記憶
擺在心底不管別人說得多么難聽
現在我擁有的事情
是你是給我一半的愛情

我喜歡你是我獨家的記憶
誰也不行從我這個身體中拉走你
在我感情的封鎖區
有關于你絕口不提沒限期

cant seem to get the song out of my head..

the human age.

2008-09-05T22:36:00.003+08:00

alas.. another quiet time for me to blog..
this has been my 3rd post for the week. what a rebirth.

i thought of many things to blog about.. crossing over to adulthood, marriages and etc.
i realised all this are associated to changes as time goes by..
soon i will be talking about where to go for the latest yum cha places to go to when i am old.

time waits for no man.
having reached the age of 20 now, looking back, would you have taken an alternate route?
i guess i am privilege to have been able to be nurtured and well taken care of and my friends have always been good ones.
life was also not harsh and have to scrimp and save on every cent or even to the extent to work when i were little.
time has change and now that my parents have no ability to earn the same amount of bread as they used to.
inflation can never strike at a more appropiate time now when my mum is not working.
everything increase with the increasing oil prices. ERP gantries, GST.

ten .. or five years down the road, i see little means for the parents to support themselves.
i see then it will be my turn to help out with the household income. with me turning into a young adult in few years time, i see the impending pressure slowly being pushed on me.
gone were the carefree times when the load were on my parents shoulders, its time for me to share the financial burden now.

and this mean the inevitable mundane lifestyle of a working adult is going to unfold..
working the whole day and going back home just to recharge for the next day.
and this meant continuous long term of working.
no longer do we have school where after 6 years we graduate from primary school and go into secondary school.
we will be push forth to the working society where we are forced to work 5 and a half day a week and a limit of leaves to enjoy. working 8 hours straight is going to be really trying and to do it throughout your next 30 years of life is going to be harder than ever.

year after year of working will cause erosion of the human spirit and henceforth bring to the decay of the human growth. everything will start to decompose, all of us will age .. and eventually die.

the cycle is then complete.

its all within an eye's view now..
can you see it ?

-zhiyao

this entry i write....

2008-09-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

starting to blog again about reality topics is getting more and more tough. with my ability to use english fluently and expressing my thoughts in words seemingly destroyed by the 1 year 10 month stay with the army.

but i got to start somewhere and today i decided that i want to improve my usage of the english language abit more.

in societies nowadays, they lack people who actually listens.
how many of a conversation can you truly remember ?
i remember countless conversation through the phone with no recollections of what had been said after.
abit exaggerating about absolutely no recollections but i can safely say that if the conversation last more than an hour or so most of what is uttered would be forgotten.
however, i am not dwelling on this issue on forgotten conversation cause you just need to pay more concentration to ur partner.

i figured that to maintain a conversation, both have to take turns being the listener.
if both doesnt want to take up this responsibility, then the conversation would not last.
unless of course you met me.
i am usually always the listener. cause i am boring and have nothing interesting to talk about.
by listening and wanting to listen more, you are actually stimulating the other party to talk more and to be more involved in trying to continue the conversation.
listening is not just plain listening, you are suppose to be interested in her and what she is telling you.
you are suppose to want to know more about it. and so you have to ask question to instigate the person to tell you more about that.

why all this require alot of patience. expecially to the listener. cause he have to listen about you and all your whinings. all about your life.
however this is what can keep a conversation going for a long time.

this is until he wonders long and hard whether this is worth his time, listening about you and yourself. with no regards to you whatsoever.
you are just am empty vessel feeling yourself up with what other people interesting encounters.
or just one day.. he doesnt have anything to ask you anymore.

it takes both hand to clap, 2 to maintain a conversation. 3 is too much to pay attention to each other's needs.
conversation is supposed to last longer than an hour at least on the phone. everyone has something to share about their life. everyone wants to talk about their life. they only need someone to listen.

they just need you to listen.
will you listen to them in return ?

-zhiyao-

we are going to be one of them.

2008-09-02T19:34:00.002+08:00

today i went home on a crowded train first time in many years.
it was the peak period and everyone was rushing to get home.

i was almost oblivious. just someone getting home. everyone seemed to be minding their business doing their own stuff.
my cabin was filled with working adults. they all wear this common face. tiredness plastered all over. listening to mp3s and completely isolated from the real world and everything else.

their faces worn out with years of work. none of them wore smiles on their faces.
just pure eagerness to get home after the day's work. they were a reflection of how things are going to be like when i reached that stage. death stage.

where everything becomes mundane.. the zest of life being sucked away.
it become more and more predictable the direction adult lifestyle is.
excitement or rather the search for excitement no longer hold any meaning or purpose.
counting down to the end of the day and awaiting the arrival of another same day. another same routine.

today is a tuesday.

another day in the calender. a weekday. a working day.
another day to slog out with the sole purpose of making money.
another day to live amongst the majority. unnoticed. unwilling to exist.

are you going to be one of them ?

-zhiyao-

funny

2008-07-24T22:45:00.000+08:00

Subject: HR Memo

To all Employees:

Effective January 2008

Dress Code

1. It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your
salary. If we see you wearing Prada shoes and carrying a Gucci bag, we
assume you are doing well financially and therefore do not need a pay
raise.

2. If you dress poorly, you need to learn to manage your money better,
so that you may buy nicer clothes, and therefore you do not need a pay
raise.

3. If you dress just right, you are right where you need to be and
therefore you do not need a pay raise.

Sick Days

We will no longer accept a doctor's certificate as proof of sickness.

If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.

Holiday Days

Each employee will receive 104 personal days a year. They are called
Saturday & Sunday.

Compassionate Leave

This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for
dead friends, relatives or co-workers. Every effort should be made to
have non-employees attend to the arrangements.

In rare cases where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral
should be scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you
to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave one hour early.

Toilet Use

1. Entirely too much time is being spent in the toilet. There is now a
strict three-minute time limit in the cubicles.

2. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper
roll will retract, the cubicle door will open, and your picture will be
taken.

3. After your second offence, your picture will be posted on the
company notice board under the 'Chronic Offenders' category.

4. Anyone caught smiling in the picture will be sanctioned under the
company's mental health policy.

Lunch Break

1. Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch, as they need to eat more so
that they can look healthy.

2. Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal
to maintain their average figure.

3. Chubby people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time
needed to drink a Slim-Fast.

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. Remember we are an employer
of choice and we are here to provide a positive employment experience.

Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations,
irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations,
contemplations, consternation and input should be directed elsewhere.

interesting =)

2008-06-30T13:24:00.005+08:00

i dunno if i will be charged if i posted this.
but anyway, a interesting view of singapore's politics from another point of view.
tellling us not to believe whatever you see from the media in singapore..
believe what you want, i am not advocating anything here.
just a interesting snippet i found.
hope it helps youths to better understand the political structure of singapore.

PS: alittle update on my life on the next entry. =D

nice

2008-06-14T23:22:00.001+08:00

Clever !

A Woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball

into the woods. She went into the woods to look for it

and found a frog in a trap. The frog said to her, 'If

you release me from this trap, I will grant you three

wishes.'

The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, 'Thank

you, but I failed to mention the condition to your

wishes. Whatever you wish for, your husband will get

times ten!' The woman said, 'That's okay.'

For her first wish, she wanted to be the most

beautiful woman in the world. The frog warned her,

'You do realize that this wish will also make your

husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis

whom women will flock to'. The woman replied, 'That's

okay, because I will be the most beautiful Woman and

he will have eyes only for me.'

So, KAZAM-she's the most beautiful Woman in the world!

For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest

woman in the world. The frog said, 'That will make

your husband the richest man in the world. And he

will be ten

times richer than you. 'The woman said, 'That's okay,

because what's mine is his and what's his is mine.'

So, KAZAM-she's the richest woman in the world!

The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she

answered, 'I'd like a mild heart attack.'

Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don't mess with

them.

Attention female readers : This is the end of the

joke for you.

Stop here and continue feeling good.

Male readers: Please scroll down.

The man had a heart attack ten times milder than his
wife!!!

Moral of the story: Women think they're really smart.

Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the
show

PS: If you are a woman and are still reading this; it

only goes to show that women never listen!!!

ORD in 6 months.

2008-05-17T18:49:00.002+08:00

6 months left.
can i say how time flies?

But does it really fly. Have these 1 year and 10 months been fast.
Actually in most part it hadn't.
Posted to MSU have been a pretty blessing in disguise.
However reading past entries during my army days as a PTE in SISPEC and REC in BMT,
it felt different.
The pride difference.

walking down 24 click was a pretty milestone event allowing you to experience what it felt like to overcome something so difficult and experiencing the taste of the feeling that you have achieved and not succumbed to it.
Looking down 6 months, theres none of this left.
Or rather theres gonna be no more chances that I will have to go through all that sufferings again.
So do i missed it?
Did i really enjoyed it in the first place.

Will i miss army on the day i receive back my pink IC or i will just suddenly forget where my 2 years of NS experience is about.
Did it changed me to become a better man?

At this point, i really wonder.

back at least 4 years ago.

2008-05-04T13:59:00.001+08:00

found this while browsing my past entries.
been 4 years. and he still likes hogging the mic.
wahahahahahas.

haiz

2008-05-03T10:51:00.000+08:00

fucking failed my test.
ownage.
44 points.

-.-

just an entry

2008-04-22T20:39:00.001+08:00

haiz .

quickly ord. quickly go uni.
quickly get back to life.

i think i'm more suited to study.

=/

doing what you can

2008-04-17T15:45:00.002+08:00

this block leave have been pretty empty. there isnt much to do at home.
there isnt much company as everyone is busy with their own lives.

i make it a point to try to do something everyday instead of hiding behind this computer.
try to make it a point to swim, go out, jog.

everytime i do that it feels more human to see people instead of hiding behind your cubicle.
haha.

i wonder how i would miss times that you can just let time pass.
even tho it can be such a pain to have nth to do. i'm not trying to be sarcastic.

i wan to be able to do many things. i don't like time to slip by.
i'm already 20. it seemed to me that i should be accomplishing much more at this stage and yet i haven been doing so.

i think when i go up to uni level i will be burying myself in books like most of the others doing now. :(
and i will miss times like this.

this is just a very meaningless post.
hahas.. i'll be back again to post when i have something to post.

we are all fortunate.

2008-03-30T12:53:00.003+08:00

This is a story i got from kah fong through email.
I'm not a guy who forwards his mail so i'll just put it down here for all to read :D

Choices.

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves children with learning disabilities, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its
dedicated staff, he offered a question:
'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does, is done with perfection.
Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do.
He cannot understand things as other children do.
Where is the natural order of things in my son?'

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. 'I believe that when a child like Shay, who was mentally and physically disabled comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'

Then he told the following story:

Shay and I had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball.
Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?'
I knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but as a father I also understood that if my son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

I approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play.
The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning.
I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt.
I watched with a small tear in my eye and warmth in my heart.
The boys saw my joy at my son being accepted.
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three.
In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as I waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again.
Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game?
Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the
plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact.
The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.
As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over.
The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman.
Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates.
Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first!
Run to first!'
Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base.
He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!'
Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base.
By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team.
He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third!
Shay, run to third!'

As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!'
Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team

'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making me so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

This is a pretty simple article on the more unfortunate people within our midst. I think if everyone could just put in a little effort, it will make a difference in their lives.

Recently watched "one litre of tears" and i can say i am pretty intrigued by this true story. I am surprised that this girl with the disease could have so much optimism to live on even with such a cruel disease.
The show was pretty emotional and I am surprised that for many parts I am touched beyond words by the actions and willpower of the girl. This show taught a lot about life values and the little things in life that make it so precious.

I really hope that everyone could watch the show, apart from the actress being pretty, the show is one of the best series i ever watched and seriously the most meaningful one in teaching us how fortunate our lives are and being contented with simple things in life.

Anyone who come across the diary verson of one litre of tears can please inform me ? Theres one chi version one in kino but i rather read a english one.

-zhiyao

Maths Question.

2008-03-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

I find this entry abit less emo.
coz its MATHS question.
hahas.
pretty interesting.
get the answer from me :)

There is a bus with 7 girls.
Each girl has 7 bags.
In each bag, there are 7 big cats
Each big cat has 7 little cats.
Each cat has 4 legs.
Question: How many legs are present in bus?

randomness.

2008-03-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

think
thought
ponder.

these few days of not doing anything allowed me spaces to ponder upon matters that are really close to me.
what do i want to do in future.
how am i suppose to find my other half amidst all those pressures from my course.
how am i gonna cope with all those workload and stress.
how is my life gonna be like few years down the road after i ord.

these question i thought i dont have the answer.

when you have this spaces to think about matters, usually these spaces,empty time would create the feeling of loneliness within you.
companionship or the lack of it..
leap years thought me the importance of the courage not to indulge in relationship just for the sake of companionship but for the true meaning of being in love.
how many relationships are base on strong love may i ask.
and what is true love in that case.

i realise i have this problem of falling into love very quickly.
maybe thats not love.
i dont understand the word.
:(

isnt love just wanting to be with that someone?
but isnt that just desperate for companionship.

how is a person suited to be your partner.
how do you shy away from all those awkwardness within your feelings towards the other half.

i dont understand the chemistry about how 2 becomes 1.
and it makes me pretty upset that i cannot figure out something like that.
in problem sum, book, text,
it all seem so simple to solve.

how does one solve love.

just another day of sudden loneliness.
all these free time evoke silly questions.

i wonder how do people usually cope with the feeling of loneliness.
:/

maybe tomorrow will be much better with more friends in camp :)
alright.

-zhiyao

20

2008-03-17T01:18:00.001+08:00

ever thought of being 20?
looking at the kids on the streets, thinking that you can no longer return to those days of childlike innocence.

today i tried to contemplate life with no avail.
where does one go when they die.
whether you will get reborn and be able to think like you can now except in another body.
you can see now through your eyes and can understand how things work and remember memories.
after you die, can you still do the same thing?
can you grow up again, learn new things again den think about life again like what i am trying to do?

one just keeps getting older. the only thing to do is to grasp as much as you can within the limited amount of time you have.
youth will not wait for you.
as i sit and look at the little kids running about,
i think how much i have grown up. grown old.
i am already in my 20s.
could have already spent 1/2 my lifespan.

very soon i will be thinking my life through my half blinded eyes.
thinking how nice it would be if i was younger. more agile.
doing the many things i cant do now.

and if i die, will i get to go back and allowed to grow up once more.
i would really love that.
then maybe i would cherish every moment like never before.

i don't want to grow old.

-zhiyao

Entry to whine

2008-03-14T19:56:00.003+08:00

i am gonna write this entry just to whine about the current status of my life.

i am down. seriously down. SICK.
again.

i seriously hate that when this is the break period.
i jsut had to fall sick at the first day of the period.

well, you cant blame me.
imagine 2 weeks of constant wet weather.
and i am out there getting drench like shit.

to be able to sustain that 2 week of that and survive till now , its a pretty neat feat.
but just yesterday, after washing my m113, i lost my voice.
yes.
me , i cannot talk. i can only communicate through sign language and constant mouthing.
i would look pretty normal in virtual reality, but in real life i am definately not.

then just today when i go for my medical appointment at nuh to checkout the abnormal lump on my neck, the doctor decided that i need a needle in my throat.

so he just happy decided that he want a sampling of the tissue of the lump for testing.
and he just poke a freaking needle into my neck telling me pain pain.
KNS of coz its pain lah.
what more its not once, but freaking TWICE.
he said the lump is very mobile and runs about a lot. when he pokes in it seems to disappear.
i dont give a shit about the thing being mobile.
who will stay put and let u poke the freaking thick needle in.

they say that the sample don't seem to be enough, luckily they didnt put it in the third time.
if not i would freaking die.

so here i am whining about my sad life,
sick with runny nose, splitting headache, constant coughin, dumb,
and a freaking nagging mum.

i think i'm gonna die.

bye.

songs i've been listening to..

2008-03-01T12:17:00.003+08:00

Artist: Gary Jules
Song : Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

Artist: 李玖哲
Song: 想太多

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

Artist: 胡楊林
Song : 香水有毒

Artist: Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Song : Your guardian angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

a boring post about me.

2008-02-23T10:32:00.003+08:00

Its been freaking long since i last blog..
Theres no feel to blog lah, or there nothing much for me to say :/
Don't have the writer's bug or something.
but i never really had it :D

I have settled down in army already.
So currently just trying my best to do the remaining like 10 months in army.
Counting down...
Pretty unsure of the path to go after army.
I realised theres a gap of 6~7 months which i could get work.
Other than that, university is gonna be a big challenge.
I realised that i gotta start reading up my old notes again.
Its been so long since i last touched tutorials :/

wondered how izzit like to be studying like the As -.-
just thinking of it makes me feel so lethargic :S

Current affairs update:
Lydia Sum's passing, Edison Chen's sex scandals, Singapore chosen to host Youth Olympic Games, Malaysia's and US elections , Budget 2008.

I gotta read up if not gonna be so lost in my own world and facebook. shit. i think i ought to get a life.
Trying to pick up beatboxing WITH great difficulty. Guitar put on hold. Driving is so long away in MAY. GOD. -.-"
Other than these life have pretty much been mundane with doing similar things every weekends.
Sing in chevron, Pool at JE, Club, Mahjong.
woot. nothing already.

now if you guys could help, tell me whats there to explore in singaproe except shopping at different malls each time.
There got to be something interesting to do in singapore.
think i ought to learn some sea sports.
very interesting :D

till the next update, chao :D

-sector-

Happy birthday conclusion.

2008-01-23T12:06:00.000+08:00

birthday this year is SPENT in camp.
washing up the vehicles and sweeping floors of the vehicle shed. SERIOUS!
hahas. what a way to spend it i guess..

most of the guys are in their own respective camp. so couldnt really hold a gathering.
thought that next year could hold something like a chalet or something. cause i would have already ORD-ED =))
something where everyone can stay and play for like 2 days 1 nite or something..
idea idea !
well.. see how next year lo :D

Chao.

:)

2008-01-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

3 in 1

2008-01-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

I am sick tired sad.

somebody...
anybody..
if you are feeling this ..
you are not alone...

hearts hearts

2008-01-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

~~what~~ where art thou is love ~

something so stinging yet brings you so much joy at the same time...
army makes u think that theres so little girls out there that once one come along you just deem her as the one for you.
veri flawed.
coz that judgement is biased with the fact that you just needed a different kind of company.

you throw yourself at her frantically trying to prove you want her but deep down inside theres this burning question whether shes the one for you?
are u just mindlessly searching for company and don't want to be alone..
as you venture deeper and deeper your mind slowly slowly starts to back out..
telling you to be rational..
telling you not to rush into relationships that you feel uncomfortable with..
but your heart and all the efforts wants you to just be determine in your pursuit and wants you to want her more.

in the battle of the mind and heart, you sink into depression.
confused. don't know what to do..
she is so different, so hard to understand. she just don't allow you to know how she feels.
this uncertainty puzzles you even more whether you should continue this mindless pursuit.
you are at a standstill.
unsure of the next step to take.

blank.

i am blank.

happy 08

2008-01-05T10:17:00.001+08:00

this is my first post for the year 2008..
kinda abit guilty for just leaving my blog here to rot. hahas ..
theres currently this blank period of time in my life thats not really much things to blog about..
:/

new year comes with not much changes.
one year of army life have just ended. the final year have just arrived..
became fat again. or i have always been fat...
tried to lose it with not much changes.
i wonder how i'm gonna get my ippt silver again.

new resolutions .. i guess thats what the start of the year is about.

Become Fit! Eat less Workout more!
Have more confidence in myself. Very important.
Learn new skills = Driving, Guitar, Cooking, ice skating.
Save up money!
Keep in touch with friends !! important.
Be more outgoing.
Drink less.

hmm ... i guess thats much about it.. wondering what more to add to that list..
anyways happy 08 to everyone. hope this year will be a blast for all of you out there :D

Little johnny~

2007-12-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

A new teacher was trying to make use of her psychology courses.
She started her class by saying, "Everyone who thinks they're stupid, stand up!"
After a few seconds, Little Johnny stood up.
The teacher said, "Do you think you're stupid, Little Johnny?"
"No, ma'am, but I hate to see you standing there all by yourself!"

Little Johnny watched, fascinated, as his mother smoothed cold cream on her face.
"Why do you do that, mommy?" he asked.
"To make myself beautiful," said his mother, who then began removing the cream with a tissue.
"What's the matter?" asked Little Johnny. "Giving up Mom? "

The math teacher saw that little Johnny wasn't paying attention in class.
She called on him and said, "Johnny! What are 2 and 4 and 28 and 44?"
Little Johnny quickly replied, "NBC, FOX, ESPN and of course the Playboy Channel !"

Little Johnny's kindergarten class was on a field trip to their local police station where they saw pictures tacked to a bulletin board of the 10 most wanted criminals.
One of the youngsters pointed to a picture and asked if it really was the photo of a wanted person. "Yes," said the policeman.
"The detectives want very badly to capture him."
Little Johnny asked, "Why didn't you keep him when you took his picture?"

Little Johnny attended a horse auction with his father.
He watched as his father moved from horse to horse, running his hands up and down the horse's legs and rump, and chest.
After a few minutes, Johnny asked, "Dad, why are you doing that?"
His father replied, "Because when I'm buying horses, I have to make sure that they are healthy and in good shape before I buy.
Johnny, looking worried, said, "Dad, I think the FedEx guy wants to buy Mom!!!"

Mi Lu Bing - Shi Ying

2007-12-02T23:35:00.001+08:00

没想过爱情会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心

故事的结局走不出背影
我只能静静的

风吹醒那些曾经
转过身我用眼泪淋尽

心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静

我也曾伤心的
收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的放弃

没想过爱情会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心

故事的结局走不出背影
我只能静静的

风吹醒那些曾经
转过身我用眼泪淋尽

心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静

我也曾伤心的
收起所有回忆

你却一直住在心里
是谁都无法代替

我的心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静

我也曾伤心的
收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的放弃

该开始了该怎么去安静

arGh..

2007-11-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

kindaaaa very terribly moody now ..
cant really explain the sudden change of feeling ...
it wasnt like that in the morning..
wonder what chemical reaction in the body caused it..
it just come out of nowhere catching you by surprise.
and worst part is you dunno the root of why you are feeling that way..

saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Lesson learnt.

2007-11-17T09:55:00.000+08:00

I am so terribly disappointed in myself today. :(
It was pretty depressing to know what i have becomed altogether.

What i've done

Didnt informed my parents about where i was going last night and casually just left without their knowledge.
Went to play mahjong till very late at night knowing the next morning is my much awaited basic driving theory test.
woke up much earlier tho but decided to sleep a bit more as there was still time.
In the end woke up just on the time that i was supposed to be at the driving centre doing the test.
Didnt remind my parents about the test so that they could wake me up when they see me still sleeping.

all these made me seriously disappointed in myself.. I dunno why .. its not because of the cost but maybe its because i realise how much i have disregarded the discipline in my life for just fun.

I am so disappointed in myself and what pains me most is that my parents didnt say much but i can see how disappointed they are in me.

I need some time to reflect. :(

emo..tional

2007-10-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

blogging have been pretty irregular :/
recently have been pretty emo .. or moody :\

workload in unit have been quite hectic and the only thing to look forward to is weekends..
counting down till weekend .. :(
i really really hate my unit..
argh ~

update

2007-10-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

another update on whatever's happening ...

yup.. taiwan's episode is over

didnt blog much about it .. with great regrets cause its supposed to be restricted..
which means that its a top secret thing
but the R&R was great..
xi men ding, shi lin ye shi, wu fen pu,
have seriously great deals.. bought whole load of clothes for myself .. hahas
didnt buy much souvenirs though.. coz they didnt seem useful .. :/
so i just pampered myself with stuff for myself... should pamper cause i suffered a great deal during the 28 days of training...
bought alot of snacks also ..
haha.. LUXY was great nightclub .. managed to sneak out on 1 of the nights and went clubbing...
girls are super pretty ;)
actually girls there are really pretty.. they are like those taiwanese singers all about.. maybe is their way of making up and dressing up ..
don't think that my money brought there was enuff tho .. didnt have anymore money to spend for the last half day of my trip.. so just stare at all the good stuff that i couldnt buy.

but also restricted me to stop buying on impulse.. which is good..
anyways .. thats pretty much for my stop at taiwan .. i would really be so tempted to go again..
at least now i dun think i would need a tour guide..
traveled on their bullet train and mrt which is pretty easy ..
so its pretty cool to travel around ;)

my pop is over too .. haha..
eh.. it happened like on friday night.
4 days of continuous drilling of steps and what to dos..
for 4 days straight we have been practising how to move how the vehicle will move and all that ..
was veri veri draining.. but we endured on and finally friday night was a blast =]
got my sergeant rank at last. 19 weeks of armoured training is no simple feat.
19 weeks = about 5 months .
plus sispec and bmt ...
wow .. 10 months have past... finally got my deserved chevrons..3 STRIPES :)
hardwork, sweat and tears :) wooo..
kinda long compared to the rest my cohort in signals, infantry, combat engineer ...
but still .. finally got it !!

Gonna be posted to MSU (motorised support unit)...
Located at PASIR LABA CAMP.
back to sispec again.. well well .. couldnt say i don't welcome the posting ..
coz PLC is nearer to my house.. which is kinda more accessible.. save more time..
i heard MSU supposed to be more slack..
i am like the first batch to be posted over so many things are not settled yet .
alot of things are still unknown about MSU ..
so well .. gonna go and check it out ..
hopefully there will be better deals there in infantry..

hmm .. so whats more .. nothing much happening in my life .. everyone else is having exams and all that .. so everyone's kinda busy.. i am always free tho ..
oh ya .. i just registered today at the bukit batok driving centre.. haha
everything seem kinda costly especially if you are the one forking out the money..
oh well .. next week just gonna start my theory practice onli .. so still a long way to go .. ;)
hopefully my goal to get a licence in 6 months works out =]

My POP photo with my M113 APC ;)

Thats all ;)

-3Sg Z Y CHONG

sweet singapore

2007-10-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

I am back.. ;)
but booking in soon later on at 11 ...

probably would be free on fri sat and sun ;)

lets meet up~

see ya soon !!

bye bye

2007-08-29T20:34:00.000+08:00

alright now .. :/
i guess i'm really leaving ..
taiwan 33 days is a whole load of mixed feelings ..
i wont be leaving too much behind tho ..
but i'll be looking forward to till the day i come back .. oct 2nd ;)

till then .. keep the tagboard busy :)
see you all in ard 33 days ..
cheers ...

-zhiyao-

Taiwan 33 days

2007-08-22T20:05:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo..
this is supposed to be a secret..
bu neng shuo de mi mi :/

So ... I am going taiwan for 33 days for god know what reasons..
*coughs* army *coughs*

That leaves like .. being free on this fri night till saturday morning coz i'll be doing guard duty the whole of freaking saturday !!
-.-"

Then from sunday morning to sunday night...
Then monday night book out to wednesday night where i'll have to report to the airport...
omg -.-

so i'll be pretty free on tues and wed which most of my friends are in camp :(
and i've got no one to ask out :((

GONNA FLY SO SOON !! :(

And i'll be there for like 33 days where everyday is work and no play :(((
till the last 4 days that is..

Anyone wanna watch some movies before i go ?
Maybe borne ultimum ?
Don't mind watching secret again though ... but only make me so terribly sad after watching it :(

Or play some pool or kboxing at chevrons ?

Hmm.. Anyone who want presents please leave a short note on my tagboard or sms me b4 i get on the plane.. will try to get it :))

-Cpl Chong

PS: anyone have any exp in taiwan please leave some words of guidance in my tagbox ;)

SHE play concert (late update)

2007-07-29T15:03:00.000+08:00

i was at Expo last weekend night . wasn't planning on going out. but what luck, mr "captain commando" happened to have 2 ticks to the SHE play concert.

having like no idea what to do and both of us not wanting to stay at home on a saturday night,
we went. ::)

Expo - Max pavilion - SHE Play showcase

SHE concert beats staying at home.. at least i get to see girls everywhere :/ practically flooding expo.
We get to like sit at the very back even though this was supposed to be free seating.. coz there were free VIP seats that our ticks doesnt entitle us to AND also coz we were like late ? hahas.

Zoom 40X to get this picture. imagine where we were seating ..

We weren't very enthu about SHE tho. Altho i've taken a slight liking to hebe due to jay's MV.
But i don't really follow their news so its like a bonus thing to hear their songs and watch their performance.

For one, they really know how to get the crowd going. With selina frequently flirting with the audience and stuff, it really get all the guys to warm up. Like using some cute voice to ask the crowd whether they sung well or whether they are happy that they are watching a free concert.

yea.. i'm pretty happy to watch a free concert. ha.

Hebe and selina on a higher platform supposedly so that the crowd behind can see better. but i dun think theres much use :/

Piano recitation of "lao po"

At least i think its sweet when they sang and played the piano of the song "lao po" . kinda like the emotion they put into this song ;)

left after like an hour or so of the showcase. took more videos than photos but the videos are liek freaking big and i'm so lazy to edit it and upload it up. so :/ maybe next time when someone comes over, they can like enjoy it. ha.

Airport at night.

After the concert, which is like ard 10 ? we went to the airport. coz mr commando say " how long hav we been to an airport" and we should like go there to grab some food.
hey, fine by me.. i got no plans and so i just followed.

Changi airport mrt station.

We didnt like stay very long, met one of his friend on the way there which was another pleasant surprise. coz i was like hoping to get to bump into some friends when i was out. and he got lucky. hahas.

After that went chevron for a quick drink with some friends and then go back to bed.
At least a weekend spent doing something which was good. but objective of getting to know more girls is a failure. HA. another time i guess :)

chao ~

-cpl chong

ORD

2007-07-29T14:41:00.000+08:00

.. hahas .. mr kah haw requested i put up that its 1 year and 3 months more to ORD. but no ~ its not !

in actual fact , its 1 YEAR and 4 FREAKING MONTHS MORE .. that means that i have just spent like 6 so months in the army ..

Damn .. just 6 months ? but it feels like i have been in the army like forever.. :/ 2 and a half month of bmt + 2 and a half month of sispec + 2 months of armour = 7 months ..

eh .. why ???

where did my 1 month of service go ??

2007 - ~~jan , feb , march, april, may, jun~~, july, august, sep,oct,nov,dec
2008 - jan, feb, march, april, may, jun , july, august, sep , oct , nov(ORD) ,

ok .. that means i got 1 year and 5 months more...

...

super super depressing .. -.-

so izzit 1 year and 5 months or 1 year 4 mths or 1 year 3 months ?
:(

Life

2007-07-22T17:48:00.000+08:00

nothing much .. dunno how to say.. no feelings apparently..
army life have been pretty .... tiring ..
dealing with people politics have been a whole lot of new experience for me..
i guess thats why they mean that army prepare us for the working environment..
due to the lack of experience as jc students..

i guess theres like 11 more weeks of hard work to go.. its really hard work to become a specialist in the army.. its like so different from being a man.. i am really earning every bit of my share of ns allowance..
stories of different vocations and how life is over there made me so envious about how life has been on the other side,
but sometimes, when i think about people who go through tougher times, i would feel more comforted and contented with what i do..

the thing about armour is that its very hard to be clean...
dealing with dirt, mud, grease, oil, dust is very normal..
many times after a days work in army, your whole uniform is drenched in greasy mud and you smell like the drain.
but army have taught me to "suck my thumb" often and also allow me to be contented over the meagre sum of pay that i earn to do those stuff.

I earnestly hate to book out every week. serious. its because i dread the booking in part at the very end of the book out, its because i dread the feeling of the new week starting, the daily tiring training that seem endless.
18 weeks altogether is a very long period, and to be able to crawl through 7 weeks is a whole lot of effort..
the booking in part is really really dreadful, and so i would really hate to think that its the end of the week as a new week is coming and i must do all those load of work again..
running all those distance and pushing myself all over again...

times up ... gotta go now ... time to book in.

-chong

Dying

2007-07-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

Live your life before its too late..

-Cpl Chong

Hows armouring..

2007-07-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

The scorching sun burns down relentlessly.. its unforgiving ray heats and burns Earth. within the vicinity, there is no refuge.. there is nowhere to hide..

Its been quite a while since i've updated.. 2 weeks or 3 weeks .. mainly due to being confined for the changing of command parade.. in a short span of like 2 weeks , theres a changeover command for the commanding officer of armour training institute and another which is the changeover of the chief of armour..

One cannot be busier... But its all over now.. had quite a week coz finally i learnt how to drive the APC ( Armoured personnel carrier, i think) although its the really old model of APC (ultra m113) which is like older than my dad.. but still i cant complain when i get to drive something like that.. it is because of this that i have to withstand the burning heat from the sun as the terrain are mostly sandy and have virtually no shade from the sun except 2 small training shed.

Which explains why I suffered multiples heat rashes all over my body. This is extremely uncomfortable.. Not to forget about the lack of sleep due to the massive amount of trainees my course have which cause us to go back late at ard 12 plus to sleep and waking up ard 5plus .. It was a crazy experience and many of us became real grouchy during this period..

anyways .. i am well rested for the week ahead although i don't really want to book in.. listening to all the stories of my friends having an easy time in their units make me feel that i am seriously unlucky.

when life gives you shit like this, you can only take your thumb and suck it..
Crapz..

Cpl Chong

Countdown

2007-06-17T18:01:00.001+08:00

Pretty pretty bored right now ... i can't believe that here i am sitting waiting to book into "jail"..
Just because sometimes theres just too little time to do anything bigscale that you just have to do nothing... =/

anyway slacked around PREPARING to book in .. * sigh *
i guess theres gonna be more and more physical activities next week.. Not to mention a guard duty on monday !
Damn i'm lucky... doesnt make a difference whether i curse or swear cause whats gonna happen will happen..

went to watch fantastic 4 yesterday.. Kinda suck becuz of some lame parts..
still it was SOME activity instead of just sitting around at home... It would be much better if i was at sentosa looking at hot girls at the beach ^^, heh heh ...
Probably hope that next week i could do just that.. =]

Life is pretty mundane.. just like during school days.. except that i would rather study ...
hmm.. i dunno..
sometimes when u're studying for exams and all those stress, u kinda rather be in the army..
and now that u are in the army, u would rather choose studying.. =/
anyways.. doesnt make a difference what i think.. coz it doesnt change..

at least now armour doesnt seem too bad.. schedule is alright.
still coping well.. hope everything will continue to be like that..

PS: 1 week down, 17 more weeks to go.

A R M Y

2007-06-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

ARMY is the compulsary prison that guys have to be closed in for a period of 2 years.

No matter how good your behaviour is, you will not be let out earlier than your original sentence.

Life in the army is hellishly boring, and mentally and physically torturing and prisoners in there have low moral and no energy.

Freedom is rare in the "prison" as your movement is restricted and dictated by superiors that uses vulgarities often.

Usually the weekends of army men are burned by confinement and only rare chances do they get to return back to civilisation to rest.

Damn .. i'm booking into "prison" tonight. wish me luck.

-Cpl ZY Chong

song appreciation session.

2007-06-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

SESAME STREET !!!

ERNIE - i don't want to live on the moon.

Pichas pichas

2007-06-03T11:07:00.000+08:00

Sispec warrior =]

PASSING OUT. INTO A NEW ARENA

2007-06-02T08:25:00.000+08:00

Finally.. passed out officially from BSLC. -SISPEC...
nothing much felt... afterall the 10 week training have already numbed me..

as i look back...
It have been quite a journey in Juliet coy.
Put into a no-welfare coy where we are mentally trained.. pushed to our limits ..
mentally trained to that extent that we are stupidly doing simple things over and over again..
having stupid sergeants and no flexibility at all..
where we are so tired that we cannot drag ourselves off the bed to fall in...
where we book out on a sunday morning and book in in the very same evening right after the strenous field camp and before another strenous field camp..
where we have very very low moral ~~most~~ all of the time...
where i first have my leadership appointment.. and that is also when i realise how difficult it is to lead people who do not give their support to you, who shrugs off responsibilities.. but i realised that i was one of them.. so now i understand.

Being posted to armour training institute ( a t i )...
was pretty thankful i didnt get into advance section leader course (aslc)..
i just could not stand living in SISPEC anymore..
the mental torture is too much to bear..

however, ati isn't all that a simple affair..
all the forums have given me alittle insight on the world of armour...
theres always mixed info about the course.. so i'm still not too sure about armour..
any ways.. i am still going there at sungei gedong camp.. somewhere more further in from lim chu kang road.. where alot of cemetories are located.. well done =/
still i am thankful that i only need to report on thursday morning..
while most of my fren from other vocation would have to report on monday morning itself..

gonna be separated with the guys from SISPEC juliet coy platoon 1 again ..
life is still going on ...
wonder whether we will still be keeping touch ..
counting down to ORD ... 1 year and 5 more months ..

life still goes on ~
CPL Z Y CHONG..

END OF COURSE - BSLC.

2007-05-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hahas. . .
its been quite some time since someone asked me to update..

so i decided to take a little time off my very very busy schedule to blog..
as what my previous entry have said, things are starting to heat up.. and i didnt expect it to last so long..

i have been to 3 field camps in all... one each week.. it kinda sucks but i am already adapted to sleep in jungle terrain.. pee anywhere i want, not bathing for days and eating with dirty hands..
field camp are always tiring.. no matter how many hours you sleep in field camp, you would still be tired in the end. this is what my bmt sergeant told me, how true that is.

Finally, my final field camp and the most major one , Exercise wander and exercise grandslam have ended.. this also signals that the end of my course is near... so near that its like 3 days away..
but theres still a section live firing exercise and a 28 click route march on monday and tuesday respectively.
after that i will be promoted to CPL ZY Chong.. heh heh.. actually i already passed my course already. but still haven officially promoted yet... i am really looking forward to the pay rise..

afterall i put alot of sweat into earning this rank... being in one of the suckiest company in SISPEC where welfare is rare and we often do alot and get rewarded little..
how much i look at other company and wish i could be one of their trainee. having nights off and early book out.
Anyway, my ippt got silver.. heh heh .. happy that i can just manage a silver.. coz my running really sucks.. i am really not suited for running..
but i did 12 chinups !! wah seh ... so proud of myself.. i remember that i did zero at the start of my ns life... now i can do 12 .. heh heh =]

SOC - what can i say .. i really tried my best to run .. i think i did my SOC in 10.50+ min ?? around there... still fail .. hahas ..

now ... passing out soon from BSLC .. i hope and pray i dun go ASLC .. where more more tekan-ing session awaits ..

anyway .. i am really tired now .. sleeping on rocky grounds and on roots that poke your back isnt exactly comfortable sleep.. so i guess i shall catch some quality sleep on my bed =]

PS: I advised all recruits not to become a SPEC like me.. cause its really not worth it... maybe others in other company in SISPEC would not agree with me but those in the same company as me would agree with me that being a specialist is a wrong route to go in NS life. dun be attracted by a small payrise to give so much for ns. its really not worth it.

scik.

2007-04-22T17:38:00.000+08:00

I am feeling scik. i mean sick ! i cant even spell it right.
Feeling pretty down too .. plus with the flu and cough.. haiz..
Today is book in day too ! wah lao eh ~!!
tomorrow I have a fast march with full battle order and a exercise "gypsy".
Both which is physically demanding yet here i am sick and sick.

how much i whine... schedule have been pretty demanding lately... oh well .. all i can look forward to is the long weekend next week. hopefully i will be able to survive till then..

another thing is that i realised that i have been using excessive crude language picked up from the army. i mean everything something spark a tinge of anger i would use it. sometimes even when theres no anger ~ i just used it as i like it when i like it. its like a disease. i cant seem to control it.
So dun be too shocked to hear all the beautiful words i use. hahas .. of course i am trying to cut the habit.. but with such an environment, lets just say i am trying hard. :)

my course " BSLC " which means basic section leader course is starting to heat up. starting to experience the tiredness. the only thing to look forward to is night when we would have time to cuddle up and rest. It is really starting to be more and more physically and mentally demanding.. many times you don't even have enuff rest to proceed to the next day's activity..
i guess this is the way of a soldier's life... i cant do much but whine.

i guess thats about it .. gonna book in in less than 2 hours time. gotta go prepare now . chao.

zhiyao-

yesterday once more.

2007-04-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

When I was young
I'd listen to the radio
Waitin' for my favorite songs
When they played I'd sing along
It made me smile.

Those were such happy times
And not so long ago
How I wondered where they'd gone
But they're back again
Just like a long lost friend
All the songs I loved so well.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

When they get to the part
Where he's breakin' her heart
It can really make me cry
Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

Lookin' back on how it was
In years gone by
And the good times that I had
Makes today seem rather sad
So much has changed.

It was songs of love that
I would sing to then
And I'd memorize each word
Those old melodies
Still sound so good to me
As they melt the years away.

Every Sha-la-la-la
Every Wo-o-wo-o
Still shines
Every shing-a-ling-a-ling
That they're startin' to sing's
So fine.

All my best memories
Come back clearly to me
Some can even make me cry.

Just like before
It's yesterday once more.

oh how much one reminisce ..
this song always makes me think about the old times when life is so simple and sweet. not that i am very old, but i have think feeling of starting to grow old..

i really miss the old times .. the times when everything is just about studying and getting good grades. the times when familiar faces are always around everyday.
now that i am in the army, having to be independent and having to live a regimental lifestyle is still hard to adapt to. new friends takes time to get to know well.

as days pass, like 4 months now, i realised that it is very important to keep your friends and family close.. coz in the end they will be the ones supporting you through these times..

anyways .. most of my guy friends are serving the ns now.. jia you everyone :) 2 years will be gone in an instant =] lets all meet up soon ..

-zhiyao

Specialist Creed.

2007-04-01T00:35:00.000+08:00

School of infantry specialist, here we come,
soldiers of every creed and race.
soldiers to specialist we will become,
leader of six man we set the pace!
sispec warriors, we are the warriors,
sispec warriors, with pride we will lead,
fearlessly we lead with pride,
training hard full of might,
train to lead by day and night,
we will strive for greater heights.

Post b4 i go

2007-03-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

well.. gonna post a small update b4 i progress to the next stage of my NSF life.

going to be posted to SISPEC. whatever that abbreviate means, i dunno...

heard alot of stuff.. all the bad stuff... but tomorrow, i'm gonna experience it first hand... no matter how much i am gonna suffer inside, i cant do much.. just suck thumb and do it..

hopefully, this intense training, or maybe intense in my sense, is gonna make me a more confident person :)

So .. booking in on monday.. for a further 6 months of training.. =/ well.. all the best .. hopefully i will be out again ..

-PTE ZY CHONG

别欺骗自己

2007-03-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

听朋友说过，

如果明明不喜欢某个人，却还要假装很喜欢他，

是不可能的。。

但如果明明很喜欢某个人，却还要假装不在乎他，

也是不可能的。。

不要欺骗自己的感情，就算骗得了所有人，

也骗不了自己的心意。。

posted by my cousin. want to post it here so i will remember ;)

platoon 2..

2007-03-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

2007-03-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

IS it just me or blogger seemed to hate me..

I cant seem to post anything new.. trying to sort out some problems..

Chao Private

2007-03-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

I ought to post some updates.. otherwise people may think i died serving my nation.

Its been a hell of a ride in this short 2 months.. One experience i would never want to do it again. But that doesnt mean I hate it. Its a very challenging experience for a physically unfit person like me. The fatigue, injuries and pain succumbed during this 2 months is enough to haunt me for a long time..

The rewards seem sweet though.. after all these trainings, i have grown much stronger both mentally and physically. I have learnt to take things in my strides and enjoy the things i have instead of those i don't.
Basically i am contented with my life.

Through the shell scrape digging, 24 click route marches... i see myself braving through it all.. and for that i am proud of myself.

13 of march, the day i officially get posted out and stop being the chao recruit and become a private. It is a feat i must say.. It is a tiring tiring experience and i must say that i am happy that I have done them all. I have gone through what others have gone through and have came out in 1 piece :)

"Pain is temporary and pride is forever. "
Words by my company 2Ic.

With pride,
PTE ZY CHONG

Updateee

2007-02-20T12:45:00.000+08:00

Update-

Its been quite a long time since i last blog.. Too much to write, don't really want to waste the time on blogging.. I rather spend it sleeping or going out..
Gonna book in later which really suck.. =.-

Chinese new year break of 4 days.
Just after field camp somemore...
What a short break from my usual regimental lifestyle...

To wake up late is really a bliss..
Being in the army made you realise how fortunate it is to slack at home and do nothing...
Even doing nothing seems more tempting than doing something in tekong.
I think only those who are in the army will understand..

But then only through all those trainings will you see the rewards. At least now i'm getting fitter. Thats the only +ve thing i think i've gotten. >.<

I was wondering how to spend my remaining 20months. Kinda tired of my regimental lifestyle already.. Don't really want to be in the infantry.. Very boring boring lifestyle..

~~OCS~~
~~Sispec~~
Man

Anyways...

Left 12, 16 ,24 km route march, SIT test, RANGE, IPPT, SOC.
Well.. still got a whole lot more to go.. But llst (lan lan suck thumb)..
=/

3 more weeks to Passing out Parade (POP) on 13 March 2007.
Thats something to really look forward to.
So after that till 26 of March i will be very free..
Do ask me out for outings !!
I dunwan to be stranded at home ah.. =\

Sorry to bore all of you with this boring post. Cause i realised that army have suck most of the life out of me already.. Zzz..

- REC Z Y CHONG

Every Singaporean Son

2007-01-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

16 days.

Its the first time that i've not been home for so long..

Well, i've got 2 more years to go. It wont take long before everything is done. :)

-zhiyao

Last post as a civilian

2007-01-10T15:04:00.000+08:00

Finally, i guess this would be my last entry before i board myself on the trip to become a NS man.

Altho my hair has already been cut, my heart is still not ready. Already had some smses from well-wishers, thanks alot. I appreciate them.

This step taken is indeed a huge one. boy to man.

But i am not afraid. Have been anticipating this trip for a long time now, theres nothing much for me to expect here anyway. Might as well go full ahead to experience my new life. :)

Well, i have nothing much more to say =/ Happy 19th birthday to me in the camp =(

Hopefully see all of you soon :)

Song: Postcards from heaven

If you never, say goodbye
To the best thing in your life
There are things you don't appreciate
At all

So it's best that you don't try
Holding back the time

Are you ever, gonna be
Quite satisfied

Postcard from heaven
Go to where you belong
Never find the perfect situation
Till you know where your from

If you ever, say goodbye
No regrets, I won't ask why
And I wish you all the best love
In the world

Should you ever, change your mind
Holding back the sunshine
Why you ever, gonna be
Quite satisfied

Postcard from heaven
Go to where you belong
Never find the perfect situation
Till you know where your from

Postcard from heaven
Go to where you belong
Never find the perfect situation
Till you know where your from

zhiyao-

Reflections of a pre-enlistee

2007-01-05T12:02:00.000+08:00

Its slowly getting closer and closer to 11 of january.

I am not really anticipating being closed up in a solitary confinement for the next 2 years of my life. Although i wanted very much to become a man, the idea of being close out and cut away from life outside seems so harsh to be true.

Whats more is that the next three months sees the greatest hardship i have ever experienced throughout my 19 years of life. i have heard from friends who have already shaved their head and lock themselves in, that one is equal to a dog when you first arrived, being at the officer's every command. Being scolded everyday and punished everyday would slowly become a routine that i must stick to.

Maybe thats why NS work boys to become men. When tears slowly dry up, one can then know how much one has grown. One can then stare fear in the eye and walk through it.

Brotherhood are forged throughout the stay in NS. I believed that throughout the same harsh treatment, its when strong friendship is easily forged.

Maybe i have looked at it a tad too seriously, but i believed that once i step behind those walls, its when i truly relieve myself of all my old habits, and become a new man.

-zhiyao

Auld Lang Sai.

2007-01-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all...

Welcome 2007, goodbye 2006...

Anyways, if you're bored, you can consider reading datoufen's blog =] I tot it was pretty nice =]

Prom pictures

2006-12-31T15:12:00.000+08:00

JJC prom night is finally over... With much much disappointment to the organising committee though.. I think that the prom would be much worst if not for the people who went..

I think i could have not spend the $40 on the tickets and just went ahead to the prom even if i was not allowed a seat... I think i spent much of the night not seating down but moving around taking pictures...

However, it was a wonderful night filled with beautiful and handsome people. Girls are dressed to the nines and they look absolutely gorgeous. Having make up can do so much wonders =x *coughs* hahas... Anyway like what everyone say, everyone look so different. Hardly are they recognisable unless u really see them before.. Haha... make me thought of the quote " shi shang mei you chou nu ren, zhi you lan nu ren."

Anyways.. I shall post some of the pictures that i could upload up the server, with 1 picture taking like half an hour.. -.-"
I think the taiwan earthquake pretty much screwed the networks.
(*UPDATE: I uploaded all the pictures already!)

Let the pictures do the talking :) (click on the pictures to enlarge and undistort it =])

my favourite picture ah. not becuz i look handsome here, its because its taken with my favourite teacher. she is so pretty somemore.. honoured bah MSL =p

me and haochun with ms lim, hahas i remembered the days before my chemistry promos where me and haochun would find her constantly to clear our doubts about chemistry. Shes really patient and nice !

My S28 class girls.. All super gorgeous babes bahx =]

The 05s28 batch =] (FULL)

the good old Fuhua gang

I ought to post my principal's picture for all his so called teachings ;)

With qi you ci li CT Mr Sia. (he may be reading my blog)

with mr green hair, lao da ~

arrival with pretty little miss kfc ~ wah.. someone hair turn rusty..heh heh

Buddies for almost 7 years liao ~ hahas

with cute little miss ang wei xia ;)

Suave Hsien wei for once (kidding la), i like his whole look . hahas =]

Pretty Grace, who lived just opposite my block sialx =]

Big SMILE! Shujun w/o contacts or glasses! =]

With Lemon tree, haha, xiaojun!

i am like a tree liddat ! with shuhui !

with pretty Miss Lee Siew Hui,

With ever so pretty Miss Jiayi, who everytime say i bully her, sorrie for all the pang sehs =X

This is my third pic with her, the previous 2 had my face in hilarious looks, while hers remaining the same throughout! Preeety Miss Sophie!

wiu weet! My pretty boss, miss jinlin, she say i must be honoured. hahas .. Ok lah .. i am =]

With pretty Miss Cai, tai tai is a compliment!

BIG flash, but pretty still! Miss BOO =] heh heh.

With Mr Low and Miss Lee =] Nice Seh !

With Cheng Joo, I think she just bought everything on the day itself, but still she look gorgeous eh ? =]

CheeZe, sorry couldnt go clubbing with her =] But had fun nonetheless, my pretty dance partner kelly !

Fellow Lion dancer, Jasper. He is Super lame as well as he is handsome. hahaz

Fellow Dragon head: Kevin aka Marlboro (no he dun smoke!)

With my senior Amanda! I took picture with XIAO HUA lehx.. hahas =] Wah SEH!

Sad that its blur, but anyway a nice picture taken with Zheng Xiang!

Win liao. She kept laughing at my different finger pose, Yvonne !

With funnyman Mr Shen ShunXing! Suave sia! =p

Yaojun look like the handsome mature kind of guy =]

Rubbish lah jinger nei nei =p

Zheng Xian looks like he gonna unleash his super power.

A very nice picture taken with muriel!

Nian ci aka nancy =p hahas ..

Xiao hei! Alvin!

Pretty Huai Yeek! i still remember her from my sec 1 days in fuhua!

Last but not least, in every success story, there must be a backstage crew. Hahas, this is my photographer cum friend for almost 9 years now. ;) Benjamin PONG!

Thats all for my prom. In short, it had been a great photographing experience! Thank you all those i took photographs with and those that i missed taking photo with, a big sorry! =]

-zhiyao

My first church service.

2006-12-26T01:28:00.000+08:00

City Harvest Church Service was great on christmas eve eve, i'll admit.. With all those christmas songs, it really did get me in a christmas mood...

For all you who don't know, under constant pressure, and constant don't go not my friend threats, (hahas).. i finally did went to the supposedly church drama thing happening at the expo on christmas eve eve.. "Supposedly" becuz it was what told to me. In the actual fact its a church service on christmas eve eve happening at the Expo. Fortunately i brought along marcus and haochun to go with me. Of coz theres dennis who is the main culprit for the whole event.

But i must say i really did enjoyed myself there. It was a warmth feelings, a pretty geniuine tingling feeling that surrounds you when you see everyone shaking hands and hugging each other saying merry christmas. Songs so sensationally sweet and wonderful.

Yes yes, but i am not gonna convert into christian anytime soon. What i am saying is i am sure that i would be interested to go to another of such event on christmas next year... Maybe because i love the atmosphere and the songs. Or maybe i dun have anything much on my next 2 years calender events. But I do love the christmas songs.

I think i am pretty much a fan of christmas songs. I would think thats because i grown up watching impactful christmas films during christmas every year. To name of some, there would be the Home Alone movie. I think its geniuinely great. What left me some of the most impression is the big christmas tree with lots of lights coupled with the christmas song that played on the background. To name some cool christmas jingle would be " its the most wonderful time of the year" , "jingle bell rock" , "silent night" and so on...

It always bring back wonderful memories watching home alone 1 and 2 especially, because it had already become a huge part of what i thought about christmas. The warmth in midst of the cold.

I think i pretty much sidetrack from the main topic.. Oh yea.. I think Expo was really packed when we got there at about 6++, with loads of beautiful people dressed up to the occasion. Thanks to dennis's friend for helping us book the seats.. The event starting with singing of some christmas songs, shaking hands with everyone around you.. Then theres the drama about how christmas came about. It was really good and the drama really did touched me alittle.

Then there was some preaching by the pastor about the teaching of jesus. I like the ambience of the lighting ceremony especially.. It was a very warmth moment when everyone of us hold a lighted white candle in the dark singing "silent night".

Ha.. It ended around 9++, and we decided to visit the carnival also organised by city harvest church located at the other hall... i think we visited one of the rides that really did left quite a lasting impression.. it was pretty fun. There was alot of meeting of dennis friends. Amiable is the word. They are very nice people and make you feel really at home. We ate at the "cafe" in the hall and talked. I think there was a massive lights out at around 11+ when theres still alot of people at the hall.. I think they probably wanted to close the hall already..

All in all i must say that this is indeed quite an experience. I think we should all try new things and not be restricted because one is bounded by different religion. What is important is that we have experience new things in life rather than going about mundane activities :)

-zhiyao

christmas thoughts

2006-12-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

This tye season to be jolly... fwalalalala lala la la ...

Indeed, one of the most joyous day of the year is coming. I guessed at 1.41AM now , its Christmas Eve ! Its pretty exciting... Or so i guessed ...

I always thought that christmas or in my heart i truely believed that christmas is the most wonderful day of the year to spend with your other half. But i think for some years now, after not having the company of the right person, you tend to feel alittle sadness everytime christmas is near...

Not to say that christmas should only be a day when you celebrate it with your other half but sometimes thats how i suppose my meaning of christmas is.
Its true or so i believed that everything in life is predestined. But i think sometimes you just have to pluck up some courage to take chances that allows fate to play a part in your meeting of the right half.

After so many years, its all just starting to become alittle bit lonely. Or christmas is starting to become just another day to be spent with your frens.
No doubt for quite some time now examinations and studies have numbed all that, and i can say i got a great bunch of friends, but i think human beings are made in such a way that it takes 2 to exist. Yes, there can be exceptions but what makes life beautiful is when love exists. And it takes 2 to love. And for me, i liken christmas to be the season of love. or more so the day of love. where love just seemed the strongest and warmest.

I just want to feel the feelings of christmas.

It seems desperate but its not. I am not desperate or pleading for someone to come my way, i am just expressing what i thought about one of the days of the year that i truely felt for and how i feel about it.

As I am starting of a journey to become a man more than a boy now, and soon to be going into the army, i believed that one part of my life's chapter is coming to an end.
I am growing up, every single day and every single second. Life ticks away.
And sometimes, what is suppose to come must wait. Maybe thats why they say, good things are worth the wait.

I guess i can wait. But i dunno should i just wait or explore more chances of meeting the right one. Till now it seems empty. Chemistry just seemed like another science subject. Maybe theres nothing at the end of my wait. And maybe its just fruitless waiting.
But it seems inevitable that i have to wait. and i think for maybe another 2 years.

Merry christmas to one and all. Its a joyous season, its supposed to be joyful.
I am not sad, more of a feeling of emptiness.

But i still think that i would enjoy christmas, for christmas allows me to spend with my loved ones. And they are my family and friends. and until she comes along, that will be all for my white christmas :)

-zhiyao

LONG LONG Update

2006-12-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

Have been pretty inconsistent with my blogging. Although lots of stuff happened in this period from my last entry. Lots of stuff happened which is good and bad.

Went clubbing on friday night. Good. As its the first time i've been to such place. Good company too.
But bad place. Hahas.
Haochun sis brought us there, free transport behind a lorry but its really pretty sucky there. Mainly because there aren't much happening stuff there. Everyone else was just sitting down slacking about. So darn boring. Dance floor seemed pretty empty. Ha.

the music underground

Cool thing is that the stuff there is pretty cheap. As said by ryan. I dunno as its my maiden time there. One jug of lime vodka ? i think that its probably lime vodka cause it taste like lime and vodka is pretty much tasteless, cost 12 bucks. So i figured its pretty cheap. And its pretty nice to drink too.
The tidbits there is free flow too. Thats good. Bad thing is that i think u have to bring girls there instead of picking up girls there. I got no guts to do that anyways so clubbing is alittle off for me.
Dance alittle. I have no idea how i looked like when i dance but haochun says its pretty darn funny. But heck, i paid 18 dollars to have fun and not to sit around. Thought i'd dance alittle.
Oh ya. besides the jug of lime vodka that we shared, we got a free housepour. Housepour is supposed to be a jug of something. Turns out its just a cup of something. Tried tequilla pop. Very refreshing taste and supposed to be pretty alcoholic. No effect. But was veri sleepy thou. Dancing made me sweat off those tireness. Took the nightrider home. Was sneezing all the way back. Must be the smoke. Oh, the place is Music Underground. eh. Ard orchard. I think its just below a hotel. Forgotten to note the place. I've got a very poor sense of directions.

Reached home at around 4.30am in the saturday morning ? Had the runny nose. Took some medication before going to slumberland for like 2 hours ? Before my dad woke me up. We were going to Malaysia. Ha. 2 hours is very not enuff. Woke up very grouchy but i knew i was going to malaysia the night before so i couldnt complain. I have to pack somemore. But was pretty efficient at that. Slept throughout the trip to malaysia. or to my grandma house for that matter. A short stay of 2 days and 1 night. Need to get back on sunday as parents need to work and i have a chalet coming up.

Kampong house where i reside in everytime i went malaysia, grandma house

An eating trip i guess. We ate alot of stuff there. A short interval of 2 hours from dinner to supper. And we ate whole lot of stuff for dinner. Food there is pretty cheap and delicious.

Pitch black at night.

only a street lamp for light

Got my army fully black specs. and some contacts. Omg. i look really fugly in contacts. but i arent really better without it so at least my eyes can grow bigger. O.O

Reached home at sunday at around 7.30pm. Slept throughout the journey back so i wasn't sleepy at home. Went online and watch some movies. It was around 3 before i sleep.

Monday morning. Was suppose to be pack and meet the 2 girls at giant to purchase some necessities for the chalet. Late. i think due to sleeping too late. Body was feeling alittle fatigue due to the recent events.

Imm changed alot. It was right behind my house and yet i haven yet to visit there much. =/
Well.. the closer things are to u, the more u neglect them i suppose..

Bbq was good. AT least its the first time there isn't a waste of food. Cause theres a lack of them. Hahas. We cleared everything. Down to the last crumb.

Haochun and zhaoyang starting the fire. Zhaoyang is a guy. HAHA.

No. the chalet dun only consist of the 2 guys. There are a whole lot of them. Just coincidences that the pictures i took have them inside. I didn't really took much pictures. All of us were singing songs using the mp3s in my handphone.

I think it was after BBQ ended then i got the headache. By then i already had the sore throat. BAD. i think the heatiness was kicking in and throat was pretty red. Soon i was having fever. Got to have some sleep but the headache was killing me. i think they went to Cheers and got me a packet of panadol extra. Ate it. But still couldnt get to sleep. But the pain subsided.

Gambled alittle and made some money at the other room. At around 6 when others are waking up, i went to sleep. Woke up 10 plus . Got mac breakfast. BAD. shouldn't have had that. Bad for throat. Continued sleeping. I think everyone at the chalet have some problem with their gas. At least i did and some of the guys i know did. Maybe the BBQ food helps u release gas. Good thing is its not smelly. hahas.

Was pretty sick that i didnt really enjoyed much of the 2nd day. Spend most of it sleeping. Couldnt really stand the headache and sore throat so i asked my mum to drive me home after her work. Got home and sleep alot. Waking up to watch alittle teevee and eat before sleeping again.

Now wednesday. At 2.39 am now. I couldnt really sleep although i needed the rest. Had too much rest in the afternoon. Just now went to see a lousy relief doctor who gave lousy medications. These medications only relief the symptoms and not the problems. Anyways, it did help my headache subside alittle. So i could at least blog and watch some movies again.

Okay. i think thats about it. Gonna have some rest now after blogging for so damn long. =]

Tata.

-zhiyao

MUNDANE AND BORING

2006-12-07T00:23:00.000+08:00

I figured that my otherwise pretty mundane life needs some shaking up..

ITS SO BORING ... that i have to sigh every now and then asking myself what the hell am i doing at home.

My job is currently pretty empty, they dun need me this week so i am pretty much gonna be stuck at home. Without any plans this can be a hell of a week to get over.

I think i needa pretty much get myself a good book to read. Its been well over some time since i read a good book. No idea what my style is but i think i needa have a visit with the local liberian tomorrow.

I figured pretty much that being online SUCK so much when u have read finish the other blogs and friendster have got nothing NEW. Games have been placed on hold coz i haven found a good one. Maybe i should start playing some DOTA. Sheesh. Someone get me started on some good game please ?

My life is so boring that i would say that i have lost the interest in blogging. I got nothing interesting to blog. Nothing much to report about. Nothing good to joke about.
Cant really find good company to go out. Going out pretty much is just movie-ing and eating dinner. Its beginning to get so boring. Singapore no doubt just a dot is full of exciting amenities. But i just dun seem to know where to explore.

Everyone is gone and busy. I sort of expected it to be like that before the As. But i didnt expect it to be that bad. Laziness is kicking in as I wanted very much to just stay at home and not go out. Nothing was interesting anymore. Life is turning black and white. Nothing good enough on TV manage to capture long enough attention.

Goals or aims that were set before As were long forsaken as the interest is slowly dying.

Damn i need a drink. Maybe smoking is a good hobby to pick up. *sigh*

PS: That school on the previous entry is COMMONWEALTH SECONDARY :/

Shitty Pictures

2006-11-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

Today i saw one of the most motivating toilets around. Or maybe most motivating that allows me to gain enlightenment while shitting. Meditating on the toilet bowl is the highest ever level to gain enlightenment. Gone were the days when one sits beneath an apple tree to learn about gravity.

I sat on the toilet bowl to learn about failure !

i just sat there and thought about it while relieving myself. Hmm.. Indeed "no man is a failure who has friends." YES. i have friends. i am NO failure.

i became pretty motivated indeed.

Its cool as in each cubicle have a different line. SO on different days you learn about different things. After gaining all the enlightenment from the toilet, you shift to other toilet around the school. Cool eh ? =]

Ahh... Failure is a stepping stone to success.
But hey, if i aint no failure, how do i succeed? then i thought hard about it. Finally, amitabha! I gained enlightenment. I think it wants us to step on failures to succeed.
Since failures are people without friends, i must step on friendless people to succeed.

this is indeed a cubicle. I am not lying. This school's toilet is full of such art pieces. Although i dun really frequent the ones that squart too much. I usually cannot gain enlightenment in time due to my poor legs cannot withstand the weight of de body.

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger.
This is pretty hard. Due to the fact that you have to turn behind to read the lines while doing your business. The coconut tree doesn't provide much help resolving the line. So far i haven't been killed before. Yet i dun feel like i have grown stronger. Or do you mean that by defecating, i am in fact growing stronger ?

But dude, i have been doing that for the pass 18 years in my life. Nothing much leh.
I am confused.

Anyway, anyone can guess which school this toilet belongs to ?
no prize though. I will blog again tomorrow with the answers =]

-zhiyao

List out stuff you want to do.

2006-11-26T13:39:00.000+08:00

Its really ironic. Sometimes when you yearn something to end so much, but after all that, you find yourself lost. Having suddenly lost that direction in your life.

Yes, i am talking bout the A level. Or post A level that is.
Its like only 4 days after my As and i have already started working. Coz if i do not, i dun think i can find stuff to do for 1 and half month besides rotting at home. Its just wierd how much I anticipated the end of the As, yes.. indeed the stress is lifted. But yet there is nothing much for me to do. Friends have already complained that they are bored at home and eagerly anticipate more outings and gatherings. I even had one who missed mugging (crazy!).

But i guessed its true, that if one didnt plan well, i would find myself very bored indeed. So bored that i would even anticipate going to NS. eh. Actually i am pretty excited about the prospect of going to the army. Cause i am really eager to lose that flab~ hahas.

I remembered writing down a list of stuff to do after As. I don't think i have yet to accomplished much besides plenty of sleep.

~~Sleep~~

~~Play PS2 and Computer games~~

Basketball all day long

Learn to play guitar

Refurnish blog

Watch animes and shows like prison break.

Watch movies that i have missed during the period.

Shop for prom attire.

Buy some berms.

~~Reformat computer~~

~~Go out to see vivocity.~~

Go outing with mr chu to experience singapore.

Expand social circle.

Find back lost friends.

Clubbing

Kbox

Thats about pretty much all. i have loads to do. But with the job, i dun think i can finish much. :( I have no time !! =X hahas. Hey, it seems that after listing out what you want to do, you suddenly feel that you have alot on your list. Hopefully by the time i book in tekong, i can complete them all.

Now isn't that cool =] Everything is there already, just needs some action into doing them.

-zhiyao

Is Bush an "Idiot" ?

2006-11-25T14:35:00.000+08:00

We should all take a moment to think about the US government George Bush.
One of the most powerful if not the most powerful man in the world.

But under closer scrutinisation, Is George Bush An idiot ?

U decide.

Yet we close roads and postpone exams because of his arrival to Singapore.

-zhiyao

Will the real Slim Shady please stand up ..

2006-11-23T12:21:00.000+08:00

Well .. finally. the real slim shady is back ;)
should i say Sector is back.

I did blog on wednesday as promise didn't I ?
Altho it wasn't really me, but a blog entry is a blog entry. So i got blog hor. Hahas . the author's link is here. If you really like the style and the way the author writes, i wouldn't mind you going there to read the daily load of ...

Well .. Anyways... A level is indeed finally over. The last time that i would wear uniform to school. Kinda a mixed feeling. I didnt missed anything much. But there is indeed several good memories that JJC have given me. Not much. But enough all the same. Although most of the times in JJC is filled with mugging but yes yes it had its fair share of fun...

I remembered my J1 days. Fun-filled with activities. At least i wouldn't need to be cooped up at home. I think the turning point would be the orientation camp where i really treasured working and performing with the friends there. There was never a dull moment as we have to stay at school to discuss proposal till late at around 11.30pm before we left the school ? Everyday was spent fully and not wasting time. I think if everyday could be like that, it would be wonderful. Orientation came and ended. Sweet :)

Pre University Seminar was a blast too. I think exposure to such activities hone one's teamwork skills. Learning how to work as a team to ensure that the programme was successful was very achieving. Great sense of achievement to reach the finale. Learn the building blocks of how to organise activities and programmes. Good friendship are forged in such days. Not to mention the fun we had thinking up crazy games and fooling around. Hahas.

Manado trip was very very fun. Hahas. Yes Yes i didn't regret going there. thanks to MsL for the persistent eh .. encouragement for me to go. The draw factor was originally the testimonial. However the exposure to the lifestyle of students there was a big bonus. Bathing in cool water in the early morning. Swimming by the super cold pool just beside the school. The breathtaking views of the seas and landscapes. The fun of performing for them or them performing for us. Their hospitality was really heartwarming. Bunking with good friends and chatting into the late nights was enjoyable too. Not to mention watching the stars at night. It was all still pretty fresh in my mind till today. Mainly caused it is really memorable.

Class o5s07 was a really memorable first 3 month class. Mainly becuz we organised activities and went out together alot. Mainly cause we really like to pon lessons. Furthermore we also always play games together. I always taught that pretty stupid games and yet they are all willing to play it! Everyone playing stupid games really bonded everyone close to each other. Love fiesta speed up the process as all of us work together towards a common goal. Going out together was very very fun.

Lion dance is the best ever CCA that i have been in. Not becuz i have lousy CCA in secondary school. But Lion dance really forge brotherhood. I dunno. But the sweat and fun spend together as a team going for competition and practicing makes it such a memorable experience. Mainly because the people inside there are so good natured. They make Lion dance such a cool CCA to be in. Furthermore, sitting at the back of the lorry with them and playing the "Gu Yue" with them was such an exciting experience.
Side note: I think why alot of ah bengs join such activities, coz its really like brotherhood. My mum is so afraid that i will land into bad company there. i think why there is such a feeling is cause of the loyalty to each performer. they are as closed as brothers.

Lastly, my class o5s28. I would say i will really miss how the class works. From playing basketball, to eating together, going out(altho i missed several outings =x).. i really feel that as compared to other classes in JJ, our class is one with the most ning ju li. altho the exam period really caused it to go haywire, but i believe that this is one class i really enjoyed in. Haha .. onli alittle regret that most of the time i spend with the class is studying... Studying really kills.

There are things i regret as well. I made friendships that i didnt spend effort in sustaining it. I made alot of friends through these activities, but yet i didn't follow up much with them after that. I was busy with my own stuff and they with theirs. Soon we became hi bye friends and after that sometimes we dun even acknowledge each other's existence. In the end, we soon became strangers and its like we dun even know each other. Hais. Sad sad . Regret Regret.

Well.. i guessed i should stop for a while and continue the next time. Its 12.35am now and i have to work tomorrow !!!

-zhiyao

shui bian la.. ni bu yao type na ma duo capital letter

2006-11-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

size small. Font Verdana, zhe yang cai bi jiao hao kan.

Wo bu dong yao xie shen mer.

My paper ended. Okz. Don't say I'm slow, because I always am. You can't blame me ya know? Everyone is faster than me, *sobz*. THIS IS SAD. But, I enjoyed life today. I played basketball, with people I love dearly. I don't know why, but i just love them. Its the feeling. You know?

And I think feelings cannot be nurtured. Its like, either you have it or not. Its not a case of nuturing. haha.

I am having headache, and my bro is making me bathe before sleeping. He scolds me because I exercised, and does he even care? I'm having headache!! Give me more love won't you, bro?!

Tomorrow I am going out with nice people! =) I can't wait to go! Because I rarely go out with them, Well, Its ONCE. NEVER BEFORE. but there is always next time yeah?!

Hmmmz, A levels Ended. I feel abit lifeless. I guess its like that. before happiness sets in, I am kind of nonchalent now. Well, People, you can ask me out now. I AM VERY FREE! =))

Hmmz, i chatted on the phone just now with someone I don't like. Chatted like 1 hr? haha. Okz. I shalln't make this mistake again. hahahaa...

S paper was tough. It lived up to its name. Special paper for Special people. Well.. Special as in, whatever way you want to think it as? haha. Becasue there are many kind of special. Unique kind? hahaz. Don't read too much into my words.

Actually, I am so so shad. Shad that Ryan didn't ask me along on sat to GEYLANG. Whatsmore, ITS GEYLANG. Maybe they went GAYLAND instead. Who knows?!! And, he must be feeling so elated deep in his heart without me. =(

Whatever it is... Take care everyone! =))

See you guys soon!

I am LiTat, I am LiTing. COOL.

BACK

2006-11-21T19:16:00.000+08:00

Indeed, the long wait is finally OVER.

The man is back in the computer seat and typing..
Hey.. Wait, wasn't i supposed to be BACK on wed.
which is suppose to be tomorrow ?

Well...

Kinda cannot succumb ... to the force of the computer...
HELP.. Its Sucking Me In .

alright. Anyways. This is supposed to be a short entry.
Purpose: To pose this super heartwarming animation i saw on youtube.com.

Let the animation begin...

Title: Kiwi!
Author:Madyeti47

Well.. if you cant understand the video... well .. watch it over again. =/
Pretty neat stuff. =]
Will promise to blog again tomorrow. ;)

-zhiyao

BE MISSING

2006-10-14T15:27:00.000+08:00

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